So many changes have gone on this last week. SOOOOO many that Greg and I should have done together, but I am left here alone to do myself.
First, I got accepted into a new masters program, I had to go and do orientation and registration and talk with financial aid. I almost lost it in front of the registrar when I had to fill out the Student Data Form and put my fathers info and not my husbands.
I don’t know about you, but I have the hardest time signing my name. Granted Ive been signing my maiden name for years. But, Greg and I were so excited for me to have his last name and each time I have to sign my name I remember the last time Greg and I went shopping together and I was signing my name and he said his name out loud and we were in the middle of a conversation and i was like what? and he was like thats gonna be your name soon. and Greg was beaming with excitement. So when i had to sign my name on the id card, i started getting emotional.
The next day, I had to move into my own place. I am blessed to have friends who have offered me a place to stay.
As with before I lived in my new place, I continue to expect Greg to just walk through the door.
August 9th, was the 5th month anniversary. It is so surreal. I can’t believe that he’s not here, and that I have to go see him at a grave, instead of him being here with me. I am still in shock and its so hard to do everyday things, everything and everyday is hard. I miss and love Greg so much.